i finally signed up, been perving on many pages for a while n was forced to join when i couldn't view adult content. not too upset by this though, mayb if ur lucky i'll get the confidence to submit some of my works.. i'm shy so this anonomous world that is the www suits my needs to showcase my efforts and recieve criticism all of which is welcome, bad and good, i'm always looking to improve. i'm a very fragile person and take much to heart and pour my heart out through words i piece together hoping that i can do my feelings justice on paper and rid them from my mind. i often think too much and it messes with me inside. i have been diagnosed with post natal depression but personally i think i was depressedlong before i was even pregnant, my life has always had a way of geting me down. often i don't even know where the sadness comes from, to an outsider my life should be full of happiness but as an insider i am tormented by the demons that are my emotions they tear me up inside. i also other afflictions but these i keep deep inside me, there are secrets that nobody knows. i suffer from an occassional ED some weeks i conquer it other days i'msometimes anorexic, ana has always lived inside me and i try everyday to quieten her though often she wins and i'm left starving, emotionally and physically.

i guess i'll save rest of my rambling rants for another entry.

love u all. xx